Our Great Year of 2023!

Inside the gift of the year of 2023, I have learned so much about myself. People can tell you about their trials and tribulations however it does not resonate until you become them. For so long I have been so sure of myself. I have been sure of the goals that I set forth being accomplished. The friendships and other family relationships have been tested and for once not knowing where they stand. The mother that I have been, but this great year of 2023 has become the year of unsurities (don't know if that's a word), I have played the follower when I was supposed to lead and I led when I was supposed to follow.

I guess this is what life is. It created something in me as I reflect today on it that revealed all of my flaws to me. It showed my human side to my children who believed that I was superhuman for some reason. It made me question where I was on God's list. You know how trials come in and you can't see anything outside of your circumstances. This was me.  I have cried so many nights just wondering how I got to this place mentally, emotionally, and physically. 

It was as if I didn't know how to silence my thoughts and listen for the Word of GOD for myself. But GOD... It wasn't as if HE had left me it was as though I started second-guessing the Word that was embedded in my heart. These scriptures were used as medicine to heal my mind and bring back my peace, Psalms 23, Psalms 27, and Psalms 91. Whew, these scriptures rang true. 

After I was obedient to GOD about some major events HE placed me into hiding. The things that I thought were breaking me I later found that they were breaking me. The breaking that was happening was the crafting, molding, and pruning me into the image that HE has for me. I didn't understand why this was happening and I couldn't understand why HE would allow these things to happen, but today I opened my eyes and HE gave me a new vision. 

The fact is that I have gone throughout the majority of this year saying 2023 has been the hardest year of my life. Which it has been... 2023 is the year that broke me, which it did... But it was intended too. GOD designed this year for me to be broken and not only that to be my "BREAKOUT season"! While reflecting I have broken out from people, places, and things. I have experienced the fire and I don't even smell like smoke. But if the HOLY TRINITY were not present in my life I think I would have missed this lesson.

Remember GOD ways are not your ways. HIS ways and thoughts are much higher than ours. Trust HIM. HE will never fail or forsake us. When we ask to be used GOD will do just that, but HE will make sure that you are equipped with the armor and know just how to use it. So sometimes he has to break us out of old habits, old ways, and old thoughts. As we submit our will over to HIS will. HE will perfect every impurity. HE just need your "yes!"

Psalms 1: 1-3

1Blessed is the one

who does not walk in step with the wicked

or stand in the way that sinners take

or sit in the company of mockers,

2 but whose delight is in the law of the Lord,

and who meditates on his law day and night.

3That person is like a tree planted by streams of water,

which yields its fruit in season

and whose leaf does not wither—

whatever they do prospers.